As I lay there preparing to enter REM ASAP, many thoughts of justification and tough love ran through my head.
It's no big deal, it's only one run.
I deserve a rest, I have been training hard.
Only two weeks of hard training before Umstead, get off your ass?
I will run after work (last time I did that was some time in early 2010).
It won't effect my race.
Maybe it wont effect my race but this is not who I am.
I may burn the candle at both ends but that is no excuse, I made a commitment.And that last thought was it. I made a commitment. Not to just anyone, but to myself. If I can let myself down, I suppose I could let anyone down. No way that's about to happen. I was up, dressed, fed and out the door in 15 minutes. Exhausted and a bit hungover but proud. Proud of following through on my commitment even though it would have been much easier to lay there. Today's run was especially good. Not long, not particularly challenging but about as encouraging as it can get.
When you feel like you just can't get up that day, or just don't want to, convince yourself otherwise. You may end up in the middle of a very special run and if you are anything like me you will feel pretty damn good all day. I promise I will be up tomorrow.