Thursday, March 10, 2011

Today, I Just Don't Feel Like It

Ever have one of those mornings when you just don't feel like getting up to run?  No matter how much we profess our love of running there is going to be a time when you're just not feeling it.  The excuses are endless and likely range from I don't feel like getting up this early today, I am too exhausted or I am sooooo hungover.  Well this morning I had all three of these to some degree.  I have been working hard, training hard, sleeping little and had one too many IPA's last night.  When the alarm went off at 4am I reached over without opening an eye and shut it off.  No snooze, no reset for later, just off.  I was going to sleep until my daughter woke up and then just go to work.

As I lay there preparing to enter REM ASAP, many thoughts of justification and tough love ran through my head.

It's no big deal, it's only one run.
I deserve a rest, I have been training hard.
Only two weeks of hard training before Umstead, get off your ass?
I will run after work (last time I did that was some time in early 2010).
It won't effect my race.
Maybe it wont effect my race but this is not who I am. 
I may burn the candle at both ends but that is no excuse, I made a commitment.
And that last thought was it. I made a commitment. Not to just anyone, but to myself.  If I can let myself down, I suppose I could let anyone down.  No way that's about to happen.  I was up, dressed, fed and out the door in 15 minutes.  Exhausted and a bit hungover but proud.  Proud of following through on my commitment even though it would have been much easier to lay there.  Today's run was especially good.  Not long, not particularly challenging but about as encouraging as it can get.

When you feel like you just can't get up that day, or just don't want to, convince yourself otherwise.  You may end up in the middle of a very special run and if you are anything like me you will feel pretty damn good all day.  I promise I will be up tomorrow.

Peace

3 comments:

  1. Nice job. Today I drove to my run start after work and fell asleep for 30 mins. Just exhausted. It isn't easy what we do...

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  2. I have found that 99% of the time - if I would just get a workout started - I end up with a euphoric effort. Not because it was especially hard, but because I set no expectations outside of "c'mon, just take a few steps and see how you feel". I try to remember this and sometimes that's what gives me the little push on those days.

    Oh, and by the way - I used to be the same way about lunchtime workouts that you are about evening workouts. For many, many years I just could not give up my lunch time...seemingly the only time of day that was mine to not do anything but relax with my own thoughts. In the last year (after nearly 30), I've broken through that a bit...

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